but still..

im sitting here..quietly..alone..
take a deep breath..and off slowly..
n im start thinkin'..

wut did i want?
wut was i looking for?
should i keep dreaming?
should i continue to reach my dreams..
the dreams that i myself don't believe that i can achieved it.
d dreams dat i'm not sure where the start and the ending of it.

but still..

i pull d strength and continue to get hold of dat dreams..
where de path that i should take is always hurt and wounded my heart!
i dun mind. because i choose dat. i deserve it.

but still..

i have a heart..i got feeling..
im not stupid, im not a puppet..
i noe meaning of fatigue..i noe d feeling of hurt..

but still..
i want it..i love it..
i need it..i hold it..

lemme continue this stupidity..
lemme continue to wait..
lemme continue to stand here..
lemme continue hoping..
lemme continue to be hurt..

because I dunwan to regret later..
lemme being satisfied with every single thing dat i've done today..
before i really noe wut is d meaning of tired..

before i realize d meaning of giving up..

d meaning of hopeless..

because..

when d time comes..
where my heart was bloody exhausted..

i will stop chasing it..

i will go away..

i will run away..

i will stay away..

and leaving..

dila zainal abidin

notahati: ni lah jadinye kalo kene keje on weekend tapi takde keje nk buat.sume rase bercampur..silly me!;')